31.7.11

生日

大家都为我的生日烦恼
从来没有那么多人要我庆祝
我的生日一向来简简单单
去年的生日是最难忘的
今年的会不会更难忘呢?
18岁生日,遇到农历7月半
大家要忙拜拜
有些没有空
原本要去吃大餐的,结果延迟了
爸爸妈妈原本也要来的,也延迟了
在他们讨论的时候,我很难过
我不希望我的生日让大家那么为难
可是还是很开心,很感动
他们愿意在我生日那天帮我庆祝
真的很感动
他们愿意为我破费
我只是一个外人,朋友的女儿
他们却把我看成他们的一份子
真的很感动
谢谢你们
还有谢谢爸爸妈妈愿意到那么远来帮我庆祝

30.7.11

childish

because of my childish..i lost everything i want
the happiness that i could not reach..
first love is the most wonderful
first love is unforgettable
eveybody has only one first love,,,cannot be more
i gave her my first love...that cannot be replaced
i lost everything...bacause i don't know how to appreciate
what she did for me...i can't forget in my life
she has another lover that can give her everything
i think i should forget the feeling between us
because i love u..

the memories are sweet,,,
because that only both of us,..
i think i still need u in my whole life,,
but we can't
actually is i can't..only me..
both of u so sweet and lovely..
hope that both of you will stay long and nice

28.7.11

STACEY, I LOVE YOU

“Stacey, wake up! Is time to work” said by Jason while he kisses Stacey who sleeps beside him. They are so sweet and lovely like two little birds fly and sing together all the time. They go to work together and they do all the things like other young couples. Yet, they less communicate, they express their feeling through the dark brown eyes with strong love. They know each other names carve in their heart that cannot be erasing.

On the 2nd anniversary of their first meet, Stacey engages to Jason for marriage. “Are they mad? They marry to someone who met two years ago” wondered by everybody. They ignore and keep their plans going. Besides preparing their wedding, they start to create memories days and nights. They reach the hill when the sun glowing orange. Stacey reads poets and they talk about their memories. Their first meet, first date, first kiss and first night. Everything is going perfectly but their life transforms after the medical report comes out. It is about Stacey. Bone cancer in her body already spread to other organs such as heart and lungs, and has only six months lifespan.

Stacey becomes weaker as the day passed by. She has difficulty in walking, her body very pain as the tumors compress the surrounding nerve and other symptoms. It is very challenging for her to go on. He takes good care of her and tries to be with her all the time after work. Now, he is like a different person, a changed man. He becomes responsible, intelligence and caring, a sincere smile is hanging on his face often. Although he knows that it is too late to pray for a hope, but he does so. The days passed one by one with lightning speed. Yet, they have to face the separation between heaven and man’s world.

A day before the estimated date by doctor, they step into the church with happiness and receive all the best wishes. Stacey is beautiful, Jason is smart and their wedding is grant. Their marriage is a testimony in front of god. At the moment, Stacey feels that the line of sight becomes very blur and she holds Jason’s hand tightly. “Jason, I love you forever” said by Stacey with happiness on her face. He hugs her and kisses her as response. A silent tear running down from the corner of her eyes and breathe one’s last. He knows her soul will be with him forever. Stacey, I love you too.

Wrote by Janet Tang Jia Ruey

28/7/11

27.7.11

JOJO

我的心情还是平复不了
jojo你跑到哪了??
jojo~
我一看到安的信息
你知道我的眼泪就这样冲下来
你跑到哪里去了?
可不可以找方法告诉安
我相信你是平安的!!
jojo~
快点回家!!
你的家人很担心你
我这个跟家人这个称号擦肩而过的人都为你担心了
我好想知道你在哪?
你告诉我好不好><

我们曾经一起玩闹
爱玩粗鲁的你
不爱吃狗粮的你
因为吃了火龙果,尿尿都变红色的你
真得让我怎么也忘不了
你的味道,触摸你的感觉
我真的忘不了
当时的你不是很欢迎我
你都不欢迎陌生人的
到最后还是跟你很友好
跟你玩追逐,你跑到很累还是跑
你怕打雷,鞭炮
最近都在下雨不是吗?
你跑到哪了?
你有皮肤病,需要打针的
你跑到哪里了!!
告诉我好不好><

26.7.11

music

来到这里后
不断地听现代歌
是为了跟上他们的脚步
可是过了那么多个月
我也会一些些了
我现在也发现我听古典乐是那么地自在
那么地快乐
没有压力,完全投入在美妙的音乐
smooth jazz music with saxophone, centuries songs!!!
这些都太棒了
我喜欢这些多过现代的歌
那些歌好吵><有时真的受不了
他说我变了,变得喜欢这些吵吵的歌了
其实我并没有,只是为了跟上他们
我喜欢的是古典乐!!!!
我喜欢violin, piano, saxophone.....
现代歌其实也有好听的,可是我就不是很喜欢啊
最后不管怎样都是选择自己最爱的那个!!

25.7.11

未来

走过我们曾经走过的路..
或许你该带着他走回我们走过的路
或许在某个地方,你还可以体会我们错过的
不管是景点,还是感觉
而我,往前看了
我感觉我失去好多好多
我感觉以前我的生活除了你,好像什么也没有
现在让我怪空虚的
音乐的陪伴,让我走完接下来的路
微笑不只是让自己开心
也是暗藏着自己的悲伤
成功的人不能让别人看透自己
除了那个能陪伴你一辈子的人
想到自己想去的大学
心跳还是那么快,那么兴奋
接下来的路我真的不知道要怎么走
感觉我迷失方向了
感觉我一直在做不可能的努力
或许根本没有努力
为了未来加油
真的好希望一切在我的安排下走到最后
希望一切能顺顺利利
不管在恋爱,在学业,在事业
我都希望自己是成功的

微笑真的能让一个人开心
心情上好或坏,是自己可以控制的
不管之前脾气有多坏,脸又多臭
接下来都靠微笑来面对
因为当别人看到你的微笑
他们也会跟着笑
在心情烦躁的时候
试着笑笑吧

22.7.11

university of utrecht

我听到我的心跳
越来越快!!
很大很大声
这是在我看到这间大学的video
是因为这是我的梦想么?
所以我才会这样

20.7.11

世界是美好的

我自我安慰的能力实在是好啊
因为某种原因让我很伤心
现在好多了
即使你选择留,我还是走
外面的世界那么美好,不走是笨蛋
未来那么美好,不走真的很傻
我们的国家只是一粒小小的番薯
不到一个月就可以走完的国家
难道要花一辈子的时间在这里?
我们这里的读书风气那么差,效率那么差
为什么不到别的地方看看?
把那里的风气带回来,影响身边的人
慢慢全部人就会跟着更改过来
那些觉得傻的人,就叫他们去死吧
这里的人都很幼稚
人家小事化无,我们这里小事化大
我们20几的人去到那里可能会被人家笑说是十几岁的小孩
外面还有很大的世界等着我们去看,等着我们去感受
我们太幸福了,什么都有的缘故
让我们都长不大,无法独立
是时候该长大了!!

emo ing..

a bit emo...
and doing maths now
exam coming next week...
i have to prepare well!!><
but this mood...sien lar!!!

i'm very sad right now...
i need a shoulder to let me cry...
i think i can't afford the sadness and stress..
i need someone that can be with me...
i need someone that i can trust

now i'm alone..
face everything alone..
i want to share my happiness and sadness with someone..
i do not want to face everything alone...
i need you!!

in class, i can guffaw, make funny things..
but in home, like transform to another person..
i feel so sad!!
here...
is the only place for me to cry...

i cant cry in the phone with my parents..
i cant cry in front of my friends and uncle...
i only can cry here...
i'm emo person..
emo person is chasing her dreams...
fighting!!!~

女人

女人怎样都是口是心非
因为他们要从男人那里得到自己想要的答案
可是男人就偏偏不给
他们因为这样伤透了心

女人真的都是口是心非
明明想要留下,却一直跟男人说要走
结果因为女人的无理取闹
男人生气了

女人都是口是心非
明明想要他回来,却什么都做不到
明明想忘记他,却什么都记得很清楚
是怎样!!

口是心非
看着别人幸福
看着别的女生有他爱的男人潜着
自己却安慰着自己说根本不需要这些

我就是口是心非
陈佳芮,我看不起你
因为你的心还有他
因为这样,你一点也不幸福!!
你活在别人的影子里!!
我讨厌这样的你!!
陈佳芮,你真的让我很失望!!

19.7.11

what is love?

i lost my happiness...
i threw it away myself!!
what the hell!!
but everything is too late for me to get back

my friend is a gay..
he waits the other guy for a few years..
he thought he left him is good for him..
but he doesn't know..
after he left him, that guy use many ways to commit suicide
but failed!!
in this few years, the other guy tried his best to get back him...
he let his parents to accept it...
'he is a gay!!'
their ending is good: they together!!!!
because of the true love

how about me??
i lost him..
he doesn't want me anymore...
i can't give him what he wants..
i lost him...
got a new girl around him everyday...
not me.....
i hope to ...
but ....everything too late!!!

17.7.11

keep going..right?

i think i'm in the right way..
im moving on to my dream...
actually i'm not confidence to achieve my dream..
but i know if i keep going..i can do it!!

face every challenging parts
enjoy it...
i think the challenging parts are the most important process before success
if u face it...thats mean ...u..win!!

daddy said: just move on...
if u lose,,,is ok..at least u did your best..
yes...but i did not do my best for every tests before..
never...!!

the coming exams...i will prepare well!!
daddy..mummy..i'll get a perfect result!!
i will try all my best!!
i promise..!!
my dream, my future!!i'll control it and not others control ME

16.7.11

Last Kiss

24th of December 2009, a day before Christmas, an accident happened in New York City. A tall and strong guy was wearing a white shirt with many red spots and bloody smell plodded on the busy street. Strangers busied to celebrate Christmas with their beloved one, vehicles dashed here and there but he was alone. The moon shined brightly on him. A shiny tear was running down from his dark brown eyes. At the same time, first snow was falling down. Everybody was cheering for the first snow, but not him. He tried hard to walk away from the crowded. Suddenly, he stopped in front of the wedding shop and stared at the wedding dress. Everything came to the place of the accident……

2 a.m. on 24th of December, a red and sporty car darted on the dark and narrow road. ‘Brayden, please slower down your speed!’ warned by Alazne, Brayden’s girlfriend with ominous feeling but this warning did not make sense to him. He continued to show off with his driving technique and his branded sport car. Suddenly, the car lost control and stroke to the steep cliff. He woke up with pains but this was not important anymore. He searched his girlfriend by shouting her name, Alazne. He hugged her and used his shirt to dress the wound but the blood still bubbling out like fountain. He gazed at the dark, cruel sky and sobbed. He prayed for his girlfriend because they are going to step into the church together, get best wishes from their relatives and friends and bless from god soon. At that time, Alazne bend her brows and breathe one’s last.

The days following that, Brayden with a gaunt face appeared in the pub. Whisky poured into his mouth non-stop. The number of bar girls kept increasing around him from the first day he stepped into the pub. Although he knew that this could not save her from heaven. Sometimes he guffawed, sometimes he sobbed. He felt guilty on her and her family. His life degenerated and he wanted to commit suicide by cutting his throat. This is the only way to get back his girlfriend, he thought. However, everything he planned could not success. His parents and Alazne’s parents came forward to give advises but his terrible life still kept going.

On the day they planned to marry, he went to the place of the accident. He turned off his car engine and gazed the view in front of him. He saw Alazne chased him all around in the university, he made a surprise birthday party for her, they went vacation to Norway, Paris, Roman and others countries, and they dated under the billions of stars. He remembered every sentences and words from Alazne. They planned their wedding, they discussed about their future, they decided to have two children, and they talked about vacation after they resigned. Everything so perfect but the plans could not continue anymore.

‘Yieeeeeeeeeeeeee…..!!!!’ a loud sound caught Brayden backed to the reality. The sound was from the break of the lorry in front of him. He tried to get out from the car, but it was too late. At that time, he saw his lovely girlfriend with a bashful smile and she was wearing an angel clothes with feathers. She was so gorgeous. ‘Come with me, Brayden’ she said while she was pulling his hand. He nodded his head while he looked into her eyes and he felt that he was getting lost in her eyes. Finally, they kissed. This kiss stayed long and beautiful. This was the thing he waited for a long period and he will not going away from her anymore, he promised.

Wrote by Tang Jia Ruey

17/7/2011

15.7.11

so touching..

'The freedom writters diary'
is a nice movie...
G8 used 3 periods to watch it...
very very nice~
in the movie, Ms. G is a great teacher..
she is new but she is amazing!!
although her husband divorced with her because of her job..
but she keeps moving with her students..

just now on phone with my mom..
she said...
' you have a dream..work harder to success it'
i know that my dad got enough money for me to continue my education
but this is a big step for me to success
although it is so tough..
i should try it out!!!!
in this 'war', i have to win...for my life...
no lose...no regret..!!

at least i got a dream...

不可能

看到标题一定觉得我又要写负面的东西了
你们错了
我要写好的!!哈哈哈!!

我想说
要我忘记他,不可能
要我不爱他,不可能

他,我收在心底
他,我选择放下

我选择出国是因为未来
如果他愿意要我,我会留下
可是我知道不可能,所以决定出国了

其实自己伤心还是开心是自己选择的
我想要开心读书,专心上课
才会放下吧
现在我的思想跟之前比起来好多了

如果我要负面想,我还是可以想很多
可是人还是要开心的嘛
刚刚我看到报道,现在心脏病的年轻人越来越多
就是因为压力,伤心,疲劳

所以我选择压力,开心,健康的读书方式=)
加油!!

p.s:放下不代表不爱,放下是因为你更爱他!!
自私地拥有不代表爱,只有痛苦

12.7.11

......

gonna be crazy...
why my body choose this time to sick..
fever fever fever!!i hate fever...
headache..
sleepy..

so many things need to complete!!!
arg!!!
i hate viruses!!!
most of my frens are sick...
i think i'm the most terrible now...

11.7.11

arh!!!!!!!gona be crazy!!!

wohoo!!!!!!
ok...i know that i'm emotional...
two hours ago..i'm very emo...because of my ex...

hahahahha~~
but now....i'm happy until....???
my dad agreed!!!!
he let me to go netherland!!and study there
so happy man!!

unversity of utrecht is my dream...
i feel that i will get it...!!hahhaha...[only feeling= =]
im not sure they need dutch language or not..
if they need....
my dad also agreed to send me there for 1 year course[dutch language=)]

crazy lar!!!!!!
hahhahahhha!!!


----------------------stop!!stop!!stop!!---------------------

my result must be 90% above....
if i got 90% above
dono they wan me or not...
haiz..!!
nvm!!i dun care!!
if you have a will, u have a way!!
i'll let them accpet me!!
hahahhahahhahha!!!
because i'm very cute..right ??hahhaha!!

原理

刺猬的原理我不必教你吧
你的朋友对你如宝贝
即使教你了,你也不会理解

真的不想恨你
可是我还没有勇气去选择宽恕
可是我现在应该选择宽恕

因为canon in d...
因为你和他
因为我的未来

放手...是最好的吧!!
加油!!

last kiss

this is a name of a song..
last kiss from pearl jam
it was talking about a car accident
the guy was driving the car and his girlfriend was sitting beside him
his girlfriend died in the accident

after the accident..
the poor girl wanted the guy hold her for her a while
and they kissed..
that was their last kiss in their life...

teacher wan us to write something about this
what should i write?
write u met an accident ?
write u lost memory..?

u don't know
when teacher discussed this, i'm so sad!!i wanna cry that time
u don't know
that time i'm thinking all about u..
u don't know
when your friend texted me ..i'm so sad

u got a such best friend..
but me...
i'm so helpless
the essay teacher called us to write is one part of the exam
congratz,,i really don't know what to write..
maybe i write until half way..i'll cry non-stop..

evrything from now...
u are just something.....undescrirable
maybe just act as don't know..like u

i'll keep everything inside and act normal in front of everybody..
include u...
i think this is wad u want..

9.7.11

我的心声

我未完成的事

換掉我身上的舊電池
感情的期限已到此為止
放心這並不是什麼末日
世界還是老樣子

愛上你該愛上的女子
全心全意守護她一輩子
到達我到達不了的位置
去完成我未完成的事

時間就像一把鑰匙
鎖住兩個人的癡
心痛一下子也好過勉強
在一起的自私

相愛是兩個人美好的旅行
淚水和笑聲都盡收眼底
謝謝你給的愛
閃耀我單薄的生命
成長需要一些曾經
分手是兩個人各自的修行
傷心時練習逆著風前進
就算沒了緣分
不代表沒愛的能力
放手是因為我真的愛過你


i hate u!!!

u break my heart againn and again
i dono how sweet between of u and her
but i really hate to see everything about u!!!
i hate u!!!

espeacially when i saw your facebook...
i hate u..
can u dissapear in this world?
can u??!?

nvm..i gona leave..
leave this stupid place
before i leave...
i'll send u a message..
only 3 words: i hate u!!

lazy..

actually today i wanna go to college to do some math revisions
because of the bersih thing near college..
so i can't go>,,<
so scary...><

stay at home very very very lazy...
i felt my bed calling me whole day
the computer pulling me whole day....
and my brain try to stop working.....
arhhhhhh!!!!!!
although i see something about my dream~
my brain did not work!!
arhhhh!!!!

how how how???
i slept for many hours...
i watched movies many many hours..
i stared at the study table many many many hours...
damage!!!how can it be!!!!!!

nevermind!!take it easy..~
after rest..study study study!!![now!!]
fighting!!!
90% is not easy for me!!
work harder!!!!!
university of utrecht !!!!i'm coming!!
i know when i step in the door of that uni...
i will be very proud and happy...
hahahha...maybe i'll laugh whole day???
=) hope so...hope that day will appear in my life
good luck..jia ruey!!

8.7.11

someone..important

actually there are many ppl important
parents, relatives, teachers, friends...
they always be with me..
support me...

daddy and mummy..
thank you for your support
and let me study in a good college..
what i decided..both of u will fully support..
thank you!!

brothers and sister..
3 of u are my idols..
try to learn something for u...
i wan to be a doctor/vet..
and study in university of utrecht
i'll reach my goal
like u all..can choose the work u like

teachers in taylor's college
thank you for giving us stress
thank you ms.lee(my previous piano teacher)
she is in netherland now...
this few days i chat with her...
she said: if u have a will, u have a way!!
yeah!!i like this very much!!
i can do it!!!

friends..
thank you shi cheng for waking me up everyday
when i feel sleepy..u are there chat with me
thank you fong shelhiel that teaching me study skills
no memorising!!only understanding!!hahaha!!
i got it after u taught me..
friends in taylor's college..
u guys are so good and kind..
teach me a lot of things
teach me how to solve questions and problems
although u guys know that i'm stupid

all of u are so nice and good!!!
i'll work harder!!!to get into UNIVERSITY OF UTRECHT
AND MEDICINE / VETERINARY MEDICINE!!

study ...study...study...study....
understanding!!!!!!

7.7.11

energy!!

don't stop!!!
keep going...
believe that i can do it!!
although i got bad results in previous exams
but if i work hard...
write everything that i understood
and related to questions..
i think i can score high marks!!

don't stop!!
keep going...
believe that i can do it!!
keep the dreams and move forward to it!!

remember that:
champions aren't made in gyms.
champions are made from something they have deep inside them
A DESIRE, A DREAM AND A VISSION!!

i knew that a lot of things i need to learn
i knew that everything is challenging
i knew that there is not easy to success
i knew that my future has a long way to go
i knew that i need to appreciate what i got right now
i knew that my dreams are difficult to achieve

BUT I KNEW THAT EVERYTHING HAS CHANCES
CHANCE TO APPLY
CHANCE TO GET
CHANCE TO EXPERIENCE
CHANCE TO SUCCESS!!

this is tang jia ruey!!
i have to get what i want!!
don't do something will make me regret!

i knew it is very important for my life
this is life!!
enjoy it!!
good luck guys!!=)

6.7.11

ohhhhh!!!!!!!!

this time gone!!!

damage!!!!!

cham cham cham!!!!


just now i got some information from college's counselor!!

it is about University of UTRECHT!!

this time die!!

if i study hard from now...can ????

can i do it????very very very very hard!!!!


1st: they accept A-level..and not SAM!!

2nd: i need IELTS!!

3rd: i can try to appl...if my result 90 and above!!

but i waste many marks at SEM1 !!

and internal asssessment!!

4th: interview!!

5th: i wan to go!!!!i hope to go!!!!!!!


90% 90% 90% 90% 90% 90% 90% 90% 90%

i need to do something for my future...

god bless me..a mi tuo fo!!

受伤

心灵受伤了
朋友伤得好重
可是却不能表露出来
他们说的其实都很对
那些其实我自己都有发现到
只是不敢面对而已

我不完美的地方真的很多
也就是说缺点很多
我只能说能改的,我会努力改
不能改的,保留~
它会变成我的特征=)

很难过
如果我突然改变
你们又会说我什么呢?
或许我该改变了
现在也没时间跟你们一起疯
现在一心只想把所有东西弄好
学我该学的东西
考好成绩
然后可以到我想去的地方
读想读的课程

相处的这一年,真的很开心
刚开始,你们的现实让我无法接受
现在能接受了
心脏的保护膜因为你们也变得更厚了
我们之间有愉快的,有伤心的
可是这些都会变成我的回忆
最珍贵的回忆
谢谢你们

5.7.11

study

from now...
i have to say bye bye to facebook
and my lovely friends..
i want to concentrate on my study
to achieve my dreams..(medicine, veterinary)
& Netherland!!
UNIVERSITY OF UTRECHT!!
i love that place..
goal: ATAR 85 and above!!
Biology 81
Chemistry 81
Mathematics 81
English as Second Language 81
Physics 81

these are the minimum marks for every subjects!!
i have to work harder!!!
Jia Ruey ..you can do it!!
Fight for dreams!!!Fight for Netherland!!

2.7.11

断了线的风筝

现在的我
有了目标
却不懂得努力
感觉我就像断了线的风筝

我需要那个能牵我回来的那个人
可是他不在了
或许也根本没有这个人
现在的我..在盼望
有那么一个吧

去荷兰读书的梦想
能不能成功
谁懂?没有人
我在这...
希望我能

或许我只能说
一切都会有挫折
只是看怎么面对
怎么解决而已