31.7.11

生日

大家都为我的生日烦恼
从来没有那么多人要我庆祝
我的生日一向来简简单单
去年的生日是最难忘的
今年的会不会更难忘呢?
18岁生日,遇到农历7月半
大家要忙拜拜
有些没有空
原本要去吃大餐的,结果延迟了
爸爸妈妈原本也要来的,也延迟了
在他们讨论的时候,我很难过
我不希望我的生日让大家那么为难
可是还是很开心,很感动
他们愿意在我生日那天帮我庆祝
真的很感动
他们愿意为我破费
我只是一个外人,朋友的女儿
他们却把我看成他们的一份子
真的很感动
谢谢你们
还有谢谢爸爸妈妈愿意到那么远来帮我庆祝

30.7.11

childish

because of my childish..i lost everything i want
the happiness that i could not reach..
first love is the most wonderful
first love is unforgettable
eveybody has only one first love,,,cannot be more
i gave her my first love...that cannot be replaced
i lost everything...bacause i don't know how to appreciate
what she did for me...i can't forget in my life
she has another lover that can give her everything
i think i should forget the feeling between us
because i love u..

the memories are sweet,,,
because that only both of us,..
i think i still need u in my whole life,,
but we can't
actually is i can't..only me..
both of u so sweet and lovely..
hope that both of you will stay long and nice

28.7.11

STACEY, I LOVE YOU

“Stacey, wake up! Is time to work” said by Jason while he kisses Stacey who sleeps beside him. They are so sweet and lovely like two little birds fly and sing together all the time. They go to work together and they do all the things like other young couples. Yet, they less communicate, they express their feeling through the dark brown eyes with strong love. They know each other names carve in their heart that cannot be erasing.

On the 2nd anniversary of their first meet, Stacey engages to Jason for marriage. “Are they mad? They marry to someone who met two years ago” wondered by everybody. They ignore and keep their plans going. Besides preparing their wedding, they start to create memories days and nights. They reach the hill when the sun glowing orange. Stacey reads poets and they talk about their memories. Their first meet, first date, first kiss and first night. Everything is going perfectly but their life transforms after the medical report comes out. It is about Stacey. Bone cancer in her body already spread to other organs such as heart and lungs, and has only six months lifespan.

Stacey becomes weaker as the day passed by. She has difficulty in walking, her body very pain as the tumors compress the surrounding nerve and other symptoms. It is very challenging for her to go on. He takes good care of her and tries to be with her all the time after work. Now, he is like a different person, a changed man. He becomes responsible, intelligence and caring, a sincere smile is hanging on his face often. Although he knows that it is too late to pray for a hope, but he does so. The days passed one by one with lightning speed. Yet, they have to face the separation between heaven and man’s world.

A day before the estimated date by doctor, they step into the church with happiness and receive all the best wishes. Stacey is beautiful, Jason is smart and their wedding is grant. Their marriage is a testimony in front of god. At the moment, Stacey feels that the line of sight becomes very blur and she holds Jason’s hand tightly. “Jason, I love you forever” said by Stacey with happiness on her face. He hugs her and kisses her as response. A silent tear running down from the corner of her eyes and breathe one’s last. He knows her soul will be with him forever. Stacey, I love you too.

Wrote by Janet Tang Jia Ruey

28/7/11

27.7.11

JOJO

我的心情还是平复不了
jojo你跑到哪了??
jojo~
我一看到安的信息
你知道我的眼泪就这样冲下来
你跑到哪里去了?
可不可以找方法告诉安
我相信你是平安的!!
jojo~
快点回家!!
你的家人很担心你
我这个跟家人这个称号擦肩而过的人都为你担心了
我好想知道你在哪?
你告诉我好不好><

我们曾经一起玩闹
爱玩粗鲁的你
不爱吃狗粮的你
因为吃了火龙果,尿尿都变红色的你
真得让我怎么也忘不了
你的味道,触摸你的感觉
我真的忘不了
当时的你不是很欢迎我
你都不欢迎陌生人的
到最后还是跟你很友好
跟你玩追逐,你跑到很累还是跑
你怕打雷,鞭炮
最近都在下雨不是吗?
你跑到哪了?
你有皮肤病,需要打针的
你跑到哪里了!!
告诉我好不好><

26.7.11

music

来到这里后
不断地听现代歌
是为了跟上他们的脚步
可是过了那么多个月
我也会一些些了
我现在也发现我听古典乐是那么地自在
那么地快乐
没有压力,完全投入在美妙的音乐
smooth jazz music with saxophone, centuries songs!!!
这些都太棒了
我喜欢这些多过现代的歌
那些歌好吵><有时真的受不了
他说我变了,变得喜欢这些吵吵的歌了
其实我并没有,只是为了跟上他们
我喜欢的是古典乐!!!!
我喜欢violin, piano, saxophone.....
现代歌其实也有好听的,可是我就不是很喜欢啊
最后不管怎样都是选择自己最爱的那个!!

25.7.11

未来

走过我们曾经走过的路..
或许你该带着他走回我们走过的路
或许在某个地方,你还可以体会我们错过的
不管是景点,还是感觉
而我,往前看了
我感觉我失去好多好多
我感觉以前我的生活除了你,好像什么也没有
现在让我怪空虚的
音乐的陪伴,让我走完接下来的路
微笑不只是让自己开心
也是暗藏着自己的悲伤
成功的人不能让别人看透自己
除了那个能陪伴你一辈子的人
想到自己想去的大学
心跳还是那么快,那么兴奋
接下来的路我真的不知道要怎么走
感觉我迷失方向了
感觉我一直在做不可能的努力
或许根本没有努力
为了未来加油
真的好希望一切在我的安排下走到最后
希望一切能顺顺利利
不管在恋爱,在学业,在事业
我都希望自己是成功的

微笑真的能让一个人开心
心情上好或坏,是自己可以控制的
不管之前脾气有多坏,脸又多臭
接下来都靠微笑来面对
因为当别人看到你的微笑
他们也会跟着笑
在心情烦躁的时候
试着笑笑吧

22.7.11

university of utrecht

我听到我的心跳
越来越快!!
很大很大声
这是在我看到这间大学的video
是因为这是我的梦想么?
所以我才会这样